HE LOVES ME......,,NOT!

He loves me because he's not ashamed to say it aloud in front of the class that he's courting me;

He loves me not because he's kinda hesitant expressing his feelings for me.

He loves me because he texts me every night after we separate ways from school;

He loves me not because he can't fight for his feelings for me after I rejected him and can't even offer friendship.

He loves me because he's always there when I needed him,shows concern in any disappointing moments and carries my things when we walk on our way to the library;

He loves me not because he still put his (ex)girlfriend's photo in his wallet.

He loves me because he's sweet and respects me;

He loves me not because he's flirting (or talk) with other girls in the campus.

He loves me because he makes me sit on his chair and would even use my fan to comfort me when I feel hot;

He loves me not because he cannot even swallow his pride a bit after we had a dispute/misunderstanding.

He loves me because he always sit beside me and sing me a song and makes me sing with him in a duet;

He loves me not because he flirted with a girl or two after he knew that I was giving one of my suitor a chance to date with me.

He loves me beacause he mentions my name to his friends and my friends, proclaiming that he was my 'BF';

He loves me not because he can't be romantic, in a way that he can't throw me a surprise(or something!).

He loves me because he wants to spend time with me in a salon and in a restaurant;

He loves me not because he can't find a way to see me (or contact me) during sembreak while he's on the distance and visit me because we don't often see each other ofter for the reasons that we're not classmates anymore...

Sadly, in spite of this too many reasons, I realized that I STILL DO LOVE HIM and I'd keep holding on, however, in any moment, I think I might loose my grip and just GIVE UP ON HIM as he GAVE UP ON ME.

Goodbye's

"The only PAINFUL GOODBYES...
Are the ones that are NEVER SAID and NEVER EXPLAINED"......

Waiting In Vain

How do I stop falling for someone?
How do I defy the pull of gravity?
Can I just flee? Flee before I hit the ground and suffer the pain?
And tell myself....
Why do I choose to fall in the first place, when I know from the start taht someone's never gonna be there to catch me anyway..???!

Greatest Mistake In My Life

This guy asked me to be his girlfriend a few times but i always ignored him. One night, he insisted his proposal to me. I was stunned and confused, so I babbled and said offensive things that I do not mean. He tried to explain, but I resisted all what he was saying. Then, he walked out. I ran after him and pretend that nothing happened and tried to explain to him that I was just kidding. But he refused to listen. I let him go.

Days passed, and nothing came after between us. He texted me "goodbye quotes". Of course, I replied to him also an answer, but also a "quote". We went through a few exchange of quote conversation.

Until I gave up. I didnt reply anymore beacause I know for sure that that would just make our situation worse.


It really gave me a hard time to sleep at night. I know that I was guilty.

He stopped attending in one of our class where we were seatmates. I often see him alone and seems depressed. I wanted to approached him, however, there's always something that stops me from getting myself to him.


I cant even look at him straight in the eye. Everytime I tried to look at him, I found him looking back at me and when our eyes meet, I can stand it, and I will try to look away. I really get lost inside his eyes. There's something in his eyes that I keep on avoiding. Maybe, his SINCERETY that really hits me off and gets me head-over-heels.


And now, it's too late. We were not together now. He has his own life and I got mine. We're not classmates anymore that gives us another reason to not see each other. I was rude. I admit it. But who else could I blame?


Maybe I deserve someone better. I think this is the end my magical love story. eeee!