Special Birthday Letter

I have nothing to give you something special on your birthday. I would also like to take this opportunity to say how really sorry I am for the both of us. Sorry for the things that I've said and for the things that was supposedly uttered but was not expressed. Kindly excuse my labyrinth. Maybe because that's how I deal with people like you. It's my own version of 'cushion of protection' to conserve my heart from potential torments.

I may be the cheapest and weirdest girl that you knew.And will always be. If I can be such pain in the ass sometimes (or most of the time), I would just like to make opportunities not for me but for you to make me feel that I'm not. But I guess you never notice the hints.

Ayoko lang kasi na may kaagaw si God sa heart ko. I've realized it will be unfair for Him.

I've realized all the differences that we have. All I can think of right now that we have in common is: we just have the same God. So, how can two people be n unison if they won't complement each other. Or am I just rationalizing this too much?

I would like to thank and praise God for you. How He really made things beautiful in my life. You have my heart and I can't tell you enough how it fills me with so much happiness that I have someone so special like you in my life. And still, I want you to remember that you will always be special in my heart. Whatever it is that you are concealing.

I never be the one that you'd first run to. Pero 'pag hindi mo na kaya. God will be there and hey, I'm here.

Kd, thank you for making me feel special and loved for 3 months (might that be a bluff or true). Bringing such memories in my life was never been so good. Often times, I go back to those days. Which makes me feel that my Love Tank has been empty. It's been fine I know,or it's just maybe my bean doesn't want to spill yet. I just don't feel secure at times.

And no one cared to try if he can, so it end up lodged in a jar.

Well, please do take care. Enjoy your special day. There's a new more year to learn about life and discover great things. I know you are having fun with your friends and you must keep it going. Fall in love when you're ready, not because you're lonely.

Another thank you for the times that you really make me feel like laughing and I got use to it. I really do miss it and you... God bless you.

Happy Birthday!

With so much love; hugs & kisses,

Me